Braxton is a Jerk!

What a nice sunny day. Good thing Silas has white trash garbage bags all over his window because he slept till 7 this morning. Man it makes such a difference!! We’re rather chipper this morning. Right now Silas is on the deck yelling back and forth with the 19 month old who’s on the deck below. It’s funny. I blow bubbles down there and little Leo always says “ooooooo”. He’s darling. It’s weird how I never get together with them, Leo’s mom is super nice, I have a bit of social anxiety so it’s hard for me.

Yesterday we took Silas to the park and he was such a grump! He ended up having a dreadful tantrum and whacked his head SOOO hard on the concrete that he broke a bunch of blood vessels. It made a terrible sounding thump too. Yuck. Yesterday wasn’t a good day for us. I got grumpy because my nap didn’t end up being long enough and it made Brent grumpy and then Silas got grumpy. I’m usually pretty good at not getting too grumpy but nearing the end of this pregnancy I think I’m allowed to be a little. I wish it didn’t effect everyone else though. The fact that it made Brent grumpy made me grumpier too. Him and I are both so sensitive!

We went out and about looking for open houses yesterday. All the townhouse ones have a sign leading you into the complex and then no more signs. How are supposed to know where to go? We found one but it was too expensive and too big, I don’t want such a big job for our first try. The updates they had done on it would almost all have to be re-done, it was bad. Ha ha.

I had a very painful contraction yesterday amongst my normal braxton hicks. It felt like the real thing and it was in my back this time!! Silas was posterior and I luckily didn’t get back labour but my braxton hicks with him had a bit of back pain. I see my doc today so I’ll tell him about all the pressure. He needs to do a strep-B swab so perhaps he’ll check my cervix, I really hope it’s all ok, this baby needs to wait a bit but it’s feeling like it’s getting close to being ready to come out. He’s got two weeks and then he needs to come out!! But nooo sooner! I actually like feeling these contractions…I’m a weirdo.

Anyway, I should stop this rambling and do something. My Realtor just called and we’re meeting this Wednesday to get things going. TTFN!

**Just got back from my doc’s appointment and the baby has definitely dropped.  He said it doesn’t necessarily mean the baby is coming soon but he said it was rather early for him to be dropping.  Every time I have a braxton hicks it feels like the baby is already half way out.  AHHHHHHHHH

35 Weeks Pregnant!

So today I am 35 weeks pregnant, I can’t believe I am here already.  The final stretch has arrived.  I’m thinking 5 weeks is not when the baby is coming, I’m thinking a couple of weeks now.  My braxton hicks have gotten very weird and I’m feeling a lot of pressure in my bum when they happen.  That pressure is what’s making me think the baby is coming soon.  If he’s dropped then it’s a matter of days.  He better not have dropped, I really would like to keep him in there until 27 weeks when he’s full term.  The pressure is freaking me out though.  I feel it even if I’m laying down.  Anyone else have braxton hicks like this?  If I’m laying down I mainly feel pressure in my tail bone area…like right on my bum and if I’m standing I feel it where I more should be feeling it.  With Silas I had braxton hicks for weeks before he came. Never the pressure though.  Even if I’m not having a contraction I feel pressure on my tail bone.  I broke it once before so it’s extra sensitive. EWWWW Silas just came up on my lap and his pee stinks soooo bad!!  He ate like 6 stalks of asparagus last night.  Yucky, well yummy but yucky smelling pee pee.

I can’t tell if my blacking out the window helped at all but Silas slept until 6:30 which used to feel early but is a lot better than 5:30 or 6:00.  Perhaps it’ll take a few days for him to adjust his internal clock.  I really hope we get back to waking up at 7:30, that would be ideal.  His room is sure dark though.

I’ve just realized that my husband and I are tooootally different morning people.  It’s 7:30 and he’s already in a frenzy of picking up toys and making breakfast.  My morning at this time consists of cuddling with Silas and doing quiet things.  Brent’s very loud.  Oh well, we only get to have him here once or twice a week in the mornings so I guess I’ll deal with it.  I used to think he was mad but I guess he’s just a get up and go kinda guy.  Right now he’s behind me cooking up some hash browns, YUM.  He also does a lot of sneezing very loudly…he just did and I just about fell out of my chair.

I just want to look at houses now.  I want to stop typing, put Silas down and go to look at houses.  I’m feeling so excited about it, it’s unbelievable.  I had dreams about it all night last night and I just wanna do it NOW!!  The realtor said he’d call on Monday so we can get together and meet and whatnot.   AHHHHHH…this is too much fun.   I can’t wait to pick a place and then order all of the flooring and whatever else it’ll need.  This is going to be one organized operation.  It needs to be or else I’ll go batty.  I just hope the baby comes early so I can be healed.  I really like to get my hands dirty and help out.  I’m excited to try some new things.  Not excited to paint though, not at all.  I’m excited to pick paint colors though.  I have a can of paint from my mommy that I’d like to use because it’s that beautiful, warm, champagne color.  Yum.

Tonight we’re going to Jennie’s house to have a little birthday shindig for me!  This birthday has been drawn out and it’s nice.  I’ll have had three days of celebrating to some degree and it’s cool.  Brent came home early on my birthday and brought me these most amazing orange roses.  He saved me because Silas was driving me nutso that day.  Another day we celebrated by going to The Keg and I had steak and crab legs.  For my birthday, I just wanted Brent to decide to do something, plan it all and do it all on his own and that’s exactly what he did.  Perfect!  Anyway, it was great and the steak was stinking amazing!  I can’t believe how much I can eat these days.  Perhaps that’s why I’m almost 200 pounds again.  YIKES!

On the Right Track

So yesterday we got a mortgage approved and this morning I emailed the realtor that we want to use.  I was looking on mls.ca and noticed that we can afford a townhouse rather than a condo so I am SUPER excited.  Some of the ones in our price range are 1500 square feet with three bedrooms, a den, and a basement so that excites me.  I don’t think we’ll go that big because it’s more costly to renovate but it’s nice to know we can go there.  I’m really hoping for three bedrooms so when we have people come to our town they can stay with us.  Hear that Roselle??  You might not need to rent a hotel ever again!!  I think we’ll really try for three bedrooms.  The boys can still share a room and the other one can be a computer room/guest room.  I can’t believe how excited I am right now!!  I just want to go looking right now!  I really want to be chatting on the phone about it but I think I’ve already talked the ears off my family members.

Anyway, my son was up at 5:30 this morning and he’s super grumpy right now.  I took my MIL’s advice and blacked out his windows this morning so I hope that will help.  Silas is on my lap and he smells really nice because he’s been on the deck in the sun this morning.  Anyway, for those of you that pray could you send one up for us that all of this home buying thing goes smoothly and that the baby comes a bit early so I’m healed for moving time?  Thanks so much!

MAKE HIM SLEEP!!

How do you teach a toddler to sleep in more?  He’s driving me nuts!

Any suggestions?

We got our two month notice yesterday…AHHHH.

that’s all I have for you.

Moving?

Well, it looks like we’re going to have to move soon.  They’re turning our apartments into condos so we have to leave.  I’m sad because I love this place, it’s very bright and open and it has a interesting layout as well.  Plus I love my walk in closet and en suite.  I guess this is a good kick in the pants for us to buy a place.  Once we get notice (probably this week or next), we’ll have two months to leave and then second will be free so it would be nice to buy a condo in the first month and then be able to reno it while we still live here.  It’s going to suck doing all this right after having a baby, I will be wanting to get my hands dirty with it all more than I’ll be able to.  I guess I’ll just have to be the person to organize everything.  Hopefully we can live in the place for a bit and then sell it and make some money.

I’m grumpy today.  I got 7 hours of sleep and when you’re pregnant, that’s like a non pregnant person getting 4 hours of sleep.  I feel terrible and I don’t feel like I’m being an effective mommy today.  I like being the kind of person who never treats anyone differently because I’m feeling bad but I seem to be good at doing that with my son.  I guess I’m just lacking patience.  He started scratching me so he’s in his room having a cry.  I know he just wants attention when he scratches me but I was trying to give it to him and he’d just continue.  GRRRR.  What a gloomy day.  Oh well.  An hour and a half until nap time and then perhaps we’ll both be happier.

One, Two WEEEEEE!!

I’m eating tuna on crackers with pickles. Weird how last pregnancy tuna was a delicacy to me and this pregnancy I only went through like a week-long tuna phase. Now it just tastes like tuna. I need to go grocery shopping.

I just spent the morning cleaning so I could relax after my nap and I so don’t have to clean on my birthday. Brent has a surprise for me but it’s on the day after because it works better. I’m excited that he’s actually planned something. I’m paranoid he hasn’t thought it through enough to get babysitting or something if we need it. Sorry I haven’t actually named the date. I’m kinda paranoid about letting people know too much about my birthday and actual whereabouts because I’m scared of a stalker or something. Yes, I know I shouldn’t flatter myself so much but there are weirdos out there.

Silas slept even longer this morning. He woke up at seven a played around in his crib for about 40 mins, it was nice. Then we cuddled in my bed again for a while. He loves cuddling in there because he can lay there and stare at the FAN!! He says “fan” very loudly now and likes to yell it out when we come across them in public places. His passion for spinning things is unlike anything I’ve ever seen. Anyway, we ended the cuddle fest when he was more into trying to sit on my head than anything, time to get up for the day. I’m thinking that I might attach some sort of mesh bag to the side of his crib so when he wakes up there’s always toys for him to play with. I can stick it on there before I go to bed. It’ll be like waking up after the Easter Bunny has been here or something. I’d be excited. That way he might stay in his own crib longer like the old days *sigh*.

Silas has taken to singing the ABC’s and can do a fine job of it as well. I’m surprised of all the letters he gets already. He’s so dang clever. Another new thing he’s into is saying “one, two, WEEE”. I don’t know if I mentioned this but for the past few weeks he’s been saying “two WEE” and I had no idea what he was saying because it really made no sense. We took him to the pool this weekend and right away he said “TWO WEEE” and then I remembered that when we throw him to each other in the pool, we say “one, two, THREEE”. Ever since this weekend he’s been putting the “one” in there as well. It’s pretty cute and I’m proud that he’s counting to three…even though he has no idea of what he’s doing.

I don’t know if he’s just gotten used to the pain of those molars coming through or they aren’t hurting so bad anymore because he’s seeming to be back to his normal self. I don’t get why because his poor gums are looking pretty raw where the teeth are wanting to come through. Perhaps he’s just decided to be happy even though it hurts. He’s a different boy from his hitting and scratching phase. He’s even not kicking anymore when I change his bum (thanks to a little crib time) so I’m very happy. It’s nuts how many phases kids go through. It’s good then bad then good then bad…etc. I’m learning to love a bit of a challenge with him and having success with discipline. He’s quick to learn what’s wrong and what’s right and I just think that’s his personality along with a little consistency. Give me a week and I’ll be freaking out about some new problem we’ve come across. Right now he’s acting like a little darling, I love his gentle nature and just his general happiness he holds. Him yelling “HAPPY” 500 times a day is icing on that cake.

Anyway, that’s that. I think I’m going to put another pregnancy photo up from my photo shoot and then get my bum to bed for glorious nap time. I’m finding it interesting how much I drool when I nap, I don’t do that at night. Hmmmmm. OOO, I’m ready for another Canucks game tonight and I really hope Chris gets voted off Idol. Who do you wanna see go? I thought Jordin was the best last night, she made me cry.

My hunky husband and I, I love his belt buckle in this photo. We bought that on our honeymoon.

A Better Morning

Silas kinda made up for his early morning rising this morning.  I’m waking up at around 6 now just because I’m getting used to it…grrrr.  Silas woke up about 6:20 but he was actually happy and talking to himself so I just left him until he wasn’t happy.  I tried to give him toys but that was a no go so I brought him into bed with me for a cuddle and my my my that boy was sucky this morning.  He cuddled and cuddled and cuddled.  At times his face was smooshed so hard into mine that I hardly could breathe.  It was lovely.  He rubbed my arm and played with my hair and at about 7:20, he fell back asleep and so did I.  I was kinda dozing during all the initial cuddling but only for short moments.  I didn’t sleep very well like he did during that time with his mouth gaping open but I did manage to squeeze in some comfy winks.  By the end, my arm and leg were so sore and I was incredibly sweaty so I attempted to break free from our very tight cuddle but it woke him up.  He promptly lowered himself from the bed and started running around.  I did feel awake and refreshed for about 5 minutes and now I’m just tired again.  Oh well.  We were out of bed at about 8:30 so I think we slept about 40 mins.  It was a really nice cuddle time, he initiated all of it and it was just so dang cozy and lovey.  I love that.

So my dr’s appointment went well yesterday.  Blood pressure is good, weight is scary and a lot more than I thought it would be.  I’m blaming it on my in-laws taking us out for supper too much while they were here, no, it’s just me…the rest of my body gets jealous when my tummy gets to grow so it all grows as well.  Anyway, before he said that after this visit I’d come every two weeks then every week but he seems to think I need to be in there weekly now as he says baby can come anytime.  I’m hoping he’ll stay in there for three more weeks and then come out.  My doc said he might be a bit bigger than Silas, lets hope not.

Last night’s Canucks game was the most exciting game I’ve ever watched.  I’m really starting to understand the game more and I catch more things.  I find it crazy how true hockey fans can catch everything.  They see things that my brain can’t even comprehend and they always see it’s a goal before I do.  My husband is calling out penalties and everything and even on the replay I don’t always see what happened.  But I’m getting there.  I had my doubts about us winning last night but I’m so happy we did.  I love playoff time, normal season I’m ok to do without.  Same with baseball too.

Now my city is rather close to Vancouver so of course there’s many fans around here.  When we win a big game like this, tons of people go out to our main strip and honk and wave flags and pretty much just have a very large party on the street.  There’s people of all ages and most people are very well behaved and just having a good time.  Jules and I decided to join in on the fun last night so we went out there.  I only live a block away so we got there fast.  Within about 30 mins there were probably about 3 or 4 hundred people walking around and most of the cars were at a stand still.  There was smoke everywhere from people spinning their tires and our horn started to lose it’s voice.  Soon it was just coughing out this low hum but it would come back sometimes if we let it cool off.  What a fun thing to do after a game though.  When we drove past crowds of people, I’d just stick my hand out and it’d get slapped a bunch, I thought that was great.  Anyway, I think next big win, we’ll just walk there and have fun in the crowd of people.  I need an air horn or something.

My birthday is this week, I have no idea what I’m doing or if I’m doing anything.  Brent just said we’re celebrating on Friday so I look forward to that.  I’ve really had not very good birthdays for the last…5 years.  I hope this one will be good.  Anyway, I’m going to play with my son now.  He’s singing along with a Josh Grobin song right now, he’s so dang cute.

Husband to the Rescue

You know what?  Mini-wheats are incredibly filling.  I go through Mini-wheat phases because they really help keep me regular but I do get sick of them.  I’m going through a phase now though, I’m always so amazed by how full they keep me.  I just thought I’d let you all know that.

My husband saved the day yesterday.  I felt odd and sick and sad and he cleaned the kitchen for me and cooked supper, he even went out to get me ice cream.  Silas even woke him up once in the night last night and he got up!  Weird.  I wish I was half as generous as my husband is, he’s really wonderful.  Once Silas is in bed and we’re settled in front of the TV to watch whatever show, he wont let me get up to get anything, he always gets it for me.  Goodness I love him.

It was another 6am morning today but I am in a lighter mood because I expected it (and my house is cleanish).  I dunno what this phase is about but I guess I’m getting used to it like every other phase.  His violent phase is gone and I think I’ve had success with making him stop kicking me when I change him bum.  This boy really does catch on fast.  I fear he’s just learned something new.  I can hear bangs and giggles right now.  It seems as though he’s learned to throw.  We got out one of his simple wooden puzzles this morning for the first time but the giant grapes seem to be more fun to throw around.  He’s laughing his head off, oh my nerves.  He was sort of getting the concept of the puzzle though.  He knows the pieces go on the board but he sticks everything on the grape spot because that was the first spot I showed him.  Goodness I think the throwing has stopped, another thing to say “no no” to.

Speaking of “no no”, Silas has shown so much self control with things he knows he’s not allowed to touch.  This morning he pointed at my Brita filter on my bed-side table and said “nooo” and then went really close to it.  I could see him readying his finger to touch it but he never did.  I’m proud of him when he shows such control.

So I’m officially 34 weeks pregnant as of yesterday.  Chim Chim is still swimming around in there like a little trout.  He gets the hiccups like 4 times a day.  His hiccups yesterday were totally moving my tummy, Brent could feel them with his hand.  When I’m on my side he really likes to get under my ribs and tickle me…who knew the inside of your ribs are ticklish? (Silas is trying to put a puzzle piece on the window…) Silas never got me there, nor the inside of my hips.  Mr. Braxton Hicks is definitely here now, he’s been coming and going but now I feel them a lot.  Mainly when I’m laying on my side which was how it was with Silas.  I’m kind of weird and I like the feeling of them, I kinda always want them to hurt just a little more.  Maybe I’m craving a real contraction because I want him OUT!  He can come out in three weeks, that’s a good time to give birth.  I’m expecting him to come out early and if he doesn’t, he goes straight to his room upon arrival.  I grounded Silas the moment he came out as well, because he put me through many terrible hours of very hard labor.  I need to write his birth story on here soon so you can get a grasp of what this poor body has been through.  I’m still terrified about having two very little kids, I think there’s going to be many tears on my part at the beginning.

I see my doc today, I really don’t want him to weigh me.  I might just close my eyes and plug my ears and say “LA LA LA LA LA LA”.  He never gets mad at me about my weight, I’m just a weight gain kinda preggo lady.  It all falls off after he knows that so he’s not worried.  I still don’t like to see those #’s.  I’m estimating I’m about 185 ish.  I don’t feel or look that heavy but I am.  When I was barfing at the beginning I was within 5 pounds of my goal weight, I was 135…oh I can’t wait to be there again!!  After today I see him in two weeks then every week.  They know me by name there because we just went through this recently with the last pregnancy   Anyway, I really am babbling on and on.  I think Silas and I should hop in the shower so I’m clean in case the Dr needs to look at my “places” ha ha.

Canucks better win tonight!

Missing the Perk.

I need a pillow to scream into, or perhaps a punching bag.  It’s 7am and my son has been happily up and about now for about 45 minutes.  Whatever happened to crib play time?  Where did it go?  Why does my child suddenly need me at obscene hours of the morning?  He even woke up and was crying last night.  He hasn’t done that since I weaned him like 9 weeks ago.  I know his whole playing in his crib thing was really just a perk, most kids wouldn’t do it at all.  I was just hoping this little perk wouldn’t end in my last months of pregnancy when I needed sleep the most.  And perhaps when he wasn’t in a phase of waking up at 6 or 6:30 (or 5:30 yesterday) everyday.  I guess I’ll be going to bed at 8 every night from now on.  I fear I’ve done this, because I used his crib as a place of punishment a few times.  He didn’t stop playing the next morning though so I don’t get it.  At any rate, I’m completely exhausted and I feel like a explosion is near…on my part.  He also decided that he needed to be crying at 4am as well.  He hasn’t cried for any length of time since he was weaned.  I gave him more drugs and he went back to sleep only to wake up 30 mins later and crying harder.  So I gave him water, that didn’t help but he drank some anyway.  We just closed his door and let him cry himself to sleep.  We aren’t catering to such things, I’m glad I can be a hard-ass when I want to be.  His cry in the morning though, when I give him his toys and leave the room, it’s like I’ve left him there to die or something.  I want his crib thing to be fun and to be a choice.  I do admit letting him cry in there for a bit when we first started this routine but it wasn’t THIS cry.  It’s was just a whine and he stopped quickly.  Anyway, I needed to vent about this because I’m exhausted and grumpy.  I don’t think making it to church today is an option.  Brent just left because he’s doing sound and Silas is crying.

Funny how last night I was thinking of all the lovely things about being a mommy that I wanted to blog about.  Usually being a mommy is the best thing every and I’m rather joyous about it.  I think I’d be more OK about this stage if I wasn’t 34 weeks pregnant.  It’s mornings like this that make me absolutely terrified about what it’s going to be like to have two kids.  I need a good coffee right now.

On a different note, I cut Silas’ hair last night and he looks much better…his hair grows so fast around his crown so he ends up looking rather funny.  He’s all clean cut and darling now.

Silas The Brave

This morning I woke up at 6:30 to a toddler who, again, did not want to play in his crib.  Woe is me.  We did have an amazing cuddle in my bed which slightly made up for the fact that I was losing out on some precious sleep.  Once we were up, I opened the blinds to reveal the most glorious, sunny morning.  Now, sunny mornings are a hot commodity in these parts.  We’ve had such a rainy winter that apparently we’ve missed out on a couple months worth of sunshine.  I was going a little psycho from the rain.  It was nice to see that there wasn’t a cloud in the sky.  I couldn’t fathom the thought of Silas and I going back to the usual park, especially alone because I felt like I needed some company so I called up my sister-in-law Leanne.  Apparently I woke her up at QUARTER TO NINE!  Her son decided to sleep in this morning, humbug!  Anyway, I went over to her house and we went to the new park that’s within walking distance from her house.  Silas held my hand the whole way there like a good little sprout.  Silas and Lucas both enjoyed swinging on the swings but Silas was very much into wandering around.  I was really feeling like chatting with Leanne so we decided to bring the kidlets into the beautiful, brand-new baseball field and that way I didn’t have to watch Silas so closely.  Lucas sat on a sweater and played with toys and ate Silas’ Cheerios while Silas began to explore.  And explore he did, the boy has no fear!  He would walk all the way across the field from me and then back to the playground and didn’t even care that I was far away.  I had to go retrieve him many times and I was baffled that he even went that far.  He didn’t seem to think twice about it.  By the end, I kept him near us with snacks that he kept coming back for.  Goodness, someone needs to strike some fear in that boy’s heart.  He’s in stitches if his toy cow moo’s and is crying like crazy but he can wander far away from Mommy in a strange place and not think twice.  Goodness.

Sitting there in the field was lovely.  I was wearing a dark shirt so the sun really felt warm on my back, there’s nothing like that feeling to relax you and bring comfort to a very tired body.  Both our boys now have that wonderful skin-in-sunshine smell to them.  Yum.

I fear my son has some jealousy issues because whenever I began to play with Lucas I had a whiny boy come to me rubbing his eyes and suddenly needing cuddles.  Give me a break boy!  Oh well, I was flattered that he loves me so much.  We did stick Lucas on him a few times much to Lucas’ delight, he had a bright smile as he grabbed at Silas’ back.  Payback time for Silas sitting on him so much.

I could clearly tell that Silas was NOT up for walking on the way back to Leanne’s so we laid the back of Lucas’ stroller down so Silas could sit behind Lucas.  Leanne said she had done it once before with them when she was watching Silas for us.  I was not sure about it because I thought Silas would pick on poor Lucas the whole way home.  Boy was I wrong, what a sight!  Silas sat there as Lucas laid back on him and Silas just tolerated it, sometimes licking Lucas’ hair and sometimes pushing Lucas up to sit only to pull him back to lean on him.  It gave me a vision of Silas as a big brother, it was a lovely sight.  Leanne and I love it when our boys connect on some level because we want them to be the best of friends.  I love it that he has a cousin so close.

Anyway, once arriving home, I ran to get my camera only to find I had forgotten my memory card.  Leanne had taken a few photos of the last time she had them in the stroller together so I’ll post those so you can get a picture of it.  These, my friends are two of the cutest boys you’ll ever see, I can’t wait to find out the bond they’ll have as they get older.

 

 Once back, Silas and Lucas were having such a good time playing with toys side by side that we just left them, despite it being nap time.  They were having too much fun!  They have a toy there that sings the ABC’s (we have it too, a Leapfrog Learning Table, but I have the singing part taped closed because it annoys me) and Silas was getting some of the letters in the song.  He’s so clever..haha.  I guess it’s time to let him explore that side of the table because he was really enjoying it.  I’ll just go buy ear plugs.  As for Silas’ fearlessness I guess I’ve done something right in raising him so far…or something terribly wrong.